This is just the beginning....hopefully.

As a precursor to this bog I will say this: I believe I have a tendency to over use the ellipses ( ... ), sorry.
So here it is. A new blog that is not, in fact, wordpress. See, I already have a wordpress blog, but it's littered with half ideas and broken thoughts. Mostly a half-assed attempt at a blog. So rather than continue on that and probably end up discouraged, I will write here.
New Blog!
The reason for this blog is the same as many, I'm sure. I appear to have lost motivation somewhere along the road to do anything besides work, play video games, and browse the internet. So for my first internet lets explore these facets.
Work! As of the day of publication of this entry I am currently a Team Lead for a merchandising company called RMSI. I decided to name them because I hate them, and have no reasons to not slander their good name. They have essentially made me hate my life from 7pm to at least 5am Monday - Thursday. I used to just be a merchandiser. That was easy, 'cause you see merchandising sounds fancy, but its really really not. As a merchandiser you show up to work at 8pm at *local grocery store chain location* withing a 40ish mile vicinity. You are then given a schematic. Oooo. This schematic is a picture of a section of shelves, followed by a shelf by shelf description of the items on the shelf and how many facings of those items. You then change the given section from its existing appearance to what the picture/words say. Involves a lot of pulling shit off the shelves and putting it back up somewhere else. There's really fancy descriptions of Merchandising but that's the bare bones. Take shit of shelves, sometimes adjusted shelf heights, and put shit back on the shelves in the right order. Exhilarating. That was easy, so now you are wondering why I hate my job. See, I'm no longer a merchandiser. I rarely get to do that anymore. Honestly now, as a team lead, most of my time is spent getting yelled at. Yup, daily, a lot. By all kinds of people. Lately its mostly been my district manager. He's a tool. If he knew how to do his own job maybe he would understand mine. But he doesn't. He's that boss. And now he's out to get me. He wants me fired. He said I have a 'John Wayne Mentality'. I do my own thing and don't ask questions. (in case you were wondering wtf that meant) I do this because I know how to do my damn job. Anyways, I made a small error that wasn't even really an error, but I will take responsibility in the fact that it was something I failed to do. So after committing this crime I was suddenly in the Sniper Scope of my DM. So I get written up. I refuse to sign. Now they are planning to demote me, but little do they know I already got hired with a competing company. I have friends on the inside. So next Tuesday I plan to go to the monthly meeting, hand over my huge burden of crap, misery, and stress and tell them where they can stick it.
What I hope to gain from this is my sanity back, FREE TIME, and the motivation to go back to doing the things I want to do. Here's hoping. It starts Wednesday. And by it, I hopefully mean my new lifestyle.
Second thing. I play some video games. Worst part. I just dropped almost a grand on a new computer. Yikes. I can think of a ton of ways I could have better spent that money. Like for instance I really need a new pair of running shoes, or a better bike, or hell, some college (but thats another issue). Anyways. I mostly got this for the new Star Wars MMO coming out. I love Star Wars. And I love Video games, and I played the beta, and it rules. Bad thing is that since I dropped almsot a grand on this damn thing I will feel "obligated" to use it a lot. Hopefully I can manage to use it for more than just games. Like hopefully keeping up with this blog. But yikes...that was a big purchase.
Third thing. The internet. I have seen so many web comics depicting people getting distracted from what they should be doing by simply browsing the internet. I never had this problem until I was introduced to Stumbleupon. It is evil. Pure internet evil. Here put in all your interests and we will take you to hundreds of websites relevant to your interests. And just like magic, there goes all my time. Sucked in to the internet. Before I learned of the evil Pandora's box that is Stumbleupon, I was reading Game of Thrones. I really like it so far. I just wish I was still reading it. Its not like its just stumbleupon either. I mean, I occupy my time with that but I also spend a lot of time talking to people on the internet. So at least I'm being social right....sure, I'll keep telling myself that. I understand now why I used to have a 30minute time limit on the computer. Maybe I should instill that. I don't know if i have the self control.
I'm hoping that switching to this new job will not just give me more time on the internet. But give me time to do things I wont keep myself up at night wishing I had done instead of spending all day on the computer. Things like actually using the gym membership I spend 30 bucks a month on, reading books I want to read, cooking the recipes I see online and now just bookmarking them aimlessly. I blame my lack of activities on my job, the fact that I can work upwards of 14 hours a day, graveyard. But truth is, I have had this whole week off and I went to the gym at my apartment complex a whole once, didn't read a page of my book, pretty much did a whole shit-ton of nothing. It keeps me up at night. I cant sleep when I've done nothing. I trouble myself with things I should have done, and things I'll do tomorrow, things I'll do next week, and things I'll do with my life. But so much of it never happens.
Hopefully I can actually use this job change as a turning point, or starting point. Some kind of catalyst for change. I hope so. But I have to try to do more than hope.
Do, or do not
There is no try.